Not fine again... :'(

I hadn't been able to focus all day.
2 possible causes:
(1) PMS
(2) The ex is back, and part of me wishes to have a face-to-face closure, but part of me knows I'll crumble and yet another part of me wishes everything would be fine again.

Obviously everything isn't fine.

I, am obviously not fine now.
I'm crumbling again.
Then again, maybe I'd never picked myself up - I'd always been escaping from it?

寂寞寂寞就好。。。

“。。。我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好。。。”

broken ribs...

A broken heart is the worst, It’s like having broken ribs,
nobody can see it, but it hurts every time you breathe.

Yea, 6 years came to a full-stop just like that.

I feel like chopping my flocks, should I? Hmmm...

December...

"...I go back to December all the time..."

Love is...

...watching someone die.


I came home and mum told me that grand-uncle passed away.
That piece of news came a day after 5th grand-aunt got hospitalised.
She was just transferred to the ICU cuz her condition took a sudden change for the worst.

"...And I'm thinking of what Sarah said,
That love is watching someone die..."
-Death Cab For Cutie, What Sarah Said

Really?
Then who's gonna watch me die?

This quote came to my mind as I blogged,

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. You should live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

And indeed, life is short.
Treasure your loved ones.