Not fine again... :'(

I hadn't been able to focus all day.
2 possible causes:
(1) PMS
(2) The ex is back, and part of me wishes to have a face-to-face closure, but part of me knows I'll crumble and yet another part of me wishes everything would be fine again.

Obviously everything isn't fine.

I, am obviously not fine now.
I'm crumbling again.
Then again, maybe I'd never picked myself up - I'd always been escaping from it?